Thursday, March 31, 2005
I GOT WARNING SLIP.
FOR NOT WEARING MY CREZ U PROPERLY???
You can't do this!!!!I nvr got booked in crez with all the strict discipline for attire related offences before!! Safety pins are ALLOWED in crez!!I showed it to Mrs Wong whose like, so strict? She didn;t sae: not allowed! she saed: why did nt u pin the back as well? It goes in line with crez rules you carn book me for tht!! u carn!!!And anyway its TOO SHORT TO TUCK IN!! what do u want me to do!?
And yeah,. its onli a warning slip. we are allowed to accumulate 5. so one out of 5 is nothing. ITS A MATTER OF PRINCIPALS!!
U CARN BOOK ME ON MY CREZ UNIFORM.!! U CAN BOOK IF I DUN TUCK IN, BOOK IF SKIRT IF SHORT, BUT SAFETY PINS ARE IN ACCORDANCE WITH THE RULES!!!
argh,
i must sound like a stuffy person who;s fighiting for nothing. Seriously, mt ct thinks i'm a self riteous defensive idiot hu just likes arguing with her, but NO ok. This is unjust!!ARGH.
Todae was a bad day. I;m struggling with bad emotions. Thnx cheyrl, for ebing with me today. Really.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
9:41 PM
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This is blogged yesyterdae when blogger was downMy life is one big discombobulate mess. Blogger is down (my my, what a surprise -_-), so blogging on MS word (what with all the curly wavy red and green line) So much little but urgent things to finish, and theres the larger scale stuff. Here’s an example:
An Insight into Sam’s Life.
30th April, Wednesday
1200: -End of lecture-. Ppl comes forward about treasury matters. Petition matters. Lunch matters. Hastily settles them, and rushes for LT2.
1220: Practising Pomp. Cheryl shouts; Sam! I;m very very hungry!!. Okok!
Rushes after rehaearsal to canteen to eat with mei and Cheryl.
June rushes: sam! We have to get dressed and get ready by 12.55!!. Looks at watch: 12.40 AND STILL QUEING UP~~
Wang Lu calls: Sam! I carn find the petition in your bag!!!
Dumps my food on chyerl to bring back and pay for me and rushes to lt
Searches thru my bag which is a entire mess due to higlhy hasty arrangement of matters after lecture after which I dumped everything in my bag without further considerations.
Finally found it in the [astic bag with the shoe aftrmuch MUCH paniking at the thot of recollevitng the signatures and being murdered by hanyou.
1320Rushes back to canteen to finish food
Rushes to LT feeling guilty for not entertaining mei and Stephanie sommore
Rushes out to change cos concert already started
Our turn
1400: Concert ended. Rushes to change, rushed out to rush to lib so I can check srp details which were in my pda that ofelia koped but didn’t return. Ofelia calls on huimin;s phone and I realized tht my hone batt was flat. Rushed to find her and rushed to crez with mei.
1515: reached crez. It’s the FIRST TIME I felt more or lss relaxed todae. Until..
16.10: rushed to nus to meet mentor. Here’s what happened:
For SRP, technically nothing happened, Cos basically it never existed. Was reading tht darn stupid map and onli realised tht 95 dun go to engineering fac after I reached buona vista, and as a matter of fact, NO BUS from buona vista goes to engineering fac. So took 95 to the nearest possible bus stop to engine fac (which still aint reri near). Maneuvered clumsily in the maze of engine fac drive so and so, and the blocks, climbs up slops, down slopes, and up loong stairs. And I looked like a fool cos every 5 steps I had to stop and glance at the darn NUS map and turn it around cos I can’t get my brearing right (like, woman can’t read maps and men don’t listen? Its proven!)At the same time scared cos i was getting damn late, and my damn it hp 's batt was flat. like, totally flat. Like, totally DRAINED. So finally found the place looking damn sweaty and hot, and the rj uniform is just slightly thinner then rice sacks, and we know all how thin rice sacks are huh? Seriously its like some thermal heat insulator. so I went into the office, knocked on the door and found an entire gathering of nice guys in the small office while my mentor was on the phone
"arh, gal, can come in now. theres another guy doing this earthquake thing too, and he carn make it todae and wanted to change it to fridae. i thot i told him to contact u, but he didnt, right? *laughs* ahaha, of course not lah, how could he haf, his from hc! aniwae i'd like to tkae u 2 tgt, so do u mind taking a break, go down turn left its macs, den u can come down on Fri.?dun mind right, btw, did u haf ani trouble finding this place?
me: ah...next time i;d haf no trouble finding it *nods assuringly*
-entire room of guys laugh-
me: *smiles* no problem! see u on fri!!
gosh. I think I;m amused. Ooh, wait, anyway I was sooo tired after that I didn’t bother to take out the map to figure the way to the busstop. I just walked everywhere I can until I spotted a sign that says “à Busstop” And just as I discovered that there was a bus stop at a distance so ridiculously near to the engineering fac, I realized it actually serves 95, afyer I walked like 3 blocks and 2 facs tht afternoon. BLEAGH.
Anyway, good things that came out of todae:
1) I got accepted!!! He mentioned! Amnd my mentor sounded like a nice guy =)) But then tht leads me to the next dilemma: should I take this earthquake one, or compete for the other one which is more relevant to wat I really want to do? Sighhh.
2) I found a bus tht goes direct to clementi interchange. Phew
-Yesterday-
Another day of rushing to and fro. Had council interviews. Like shit. Really.
In Holding Room:
Me: *puts down phone to write name*
Councillor on duty: Arh, we have to take ur phone. *Takes phone away from me.*
Kindly go there, we’ll take your photo
Me:* thinking: arh..so formal tht their scared the interview qns will leak??? *
-15 mins later-
Councillor 1: Hey..is this your phone?
Councillor 2: no, is it yours? Its definitelynot his *points to council or 3*
Councillor 1: *Opens up to see mei;s photo* looks at ppl waiting for council interview* isit any of yours?
Me: uh…its mine?
Councillor 1: what isit doing here?
Me: you said you had to take my phone!!
Councilor: ..to
Me: What>
Councillor: I saed I had to take ur photo, why would I want your phone?
Me: nooo! You said phone, and you took it from my hand!
Councillor; ooh..sorry then!
-Later-
Councillors: I dun understand why u want to join council! You’ll all ed up like us doing this kind of thing late in the day!and thisis probably the best job you’ll have!
-Later sommore-
Councillors:See lah! All your fault we haf to stay back so lateto do this kind of thing. Why join council!?
Sigh, See lah! What we have for councilors? Bleagh.
-Council interview-
What a screw up. I meant to screw it up, or rather go thru it heck carishly, cos I really dun want to b in now. And I can’t even sound coherent or intelligent enough.
Interviwer: So..you’re in CO and piano ensemble. What would you do if you can’t cope?
Me: *thinks furiously: I carn drop CO at all costs! Not with all the time ppl are investing!* blurts out: I’ll drop [iano ensemble
And right at tht moment, I was lik, shit, what haf I done.
This whole thing is a mistake. I DUN WANT to drop piano ensemble. I DUN WANT to campaign. I;m TOO LAZY to campaign! I’m SORRY to all those ppl who wasted ur votes on me alright! BACK OFF. Argh. Sigh.
My patience and tolerance is wearing thin. I feel like some sort of mean person, some backstabber. I need to express, or I think I’ll just explode. I need my opinions to be heard! My mental state in class now is damn straining. Its like, having to consider everyone at the same time, and trying tobalance it with what I really want. What I really really want. To which I;m not sure of myself. I want to isolate? Do I. Or its probably a way of running away. I need some solitude. Desperately. There are times you feel like no one likes you and you desperately wants to be liked. Then there are times when you feel like you got too many relationships on your hands and you can’t juggle it, and you are despearetyl trying to run away. I never felt both at the same time until now. I get damn happy whn mei crashed cos it gives me reason to isolate myself. Or when anyone else crash for that matter.
Meeting ann and mei is like, something relaxing n the midst of everuthing else. Sun;s outing was good. Its like, everyone moved on with their lives, and our friendships just evolved with the changes in our lives. Not for better or for qorst, just that the quality of it changed. When went out on Sun, felt like time had frozen in the post-Olvls periods. Or rather like cryppreservation. Preserved in tht time and revived so suddenly. Its like, everything went back to as it was. I mean the changes are so gradual since Jan we don’t really notice it, but when going out on Sunday, its like, everything thrown back to post-Os period.
Busy-ness in sec3 was good, and fulfilling. I didn’t mind staying back and doing so much stuff. SL, Peer leader, senior peer leader, MIT (which in essence was nothing), cancer project(which in essence was ALSO nothing), collecting maths stuff as maths rep (now this job was something. It gave me nightmares!), SYF< e.t.c. I felt accomplished in what I wanted to accomplish. Now I don’t know what I want, I feel like I;m doing whatever I can lay my hands on, and I don; feel accomplished.
I;m gettingm y priorities mixed up. This should b my priorities:
1) ALCM exam
2) Bio test
3) Master zhong ruan and yang qin asap. Stop slacking and ponning CO.
And then theres the list of urgnt trivial stuff:
1) File in all my things. Its getting too messy
2) Petition matters
3) Tally the class treasury
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
9:38 PM
# # # Sunday, March 27, 2005
an this is for nostalgic purposesarh..
mei came over yest to bake cookies
god..wat a dae
she woke up at 2 pm first k
den met her at cold storage by walking all the wae
n subseqeuntly missing the bus on the wae home. *look of anooyance*
so a 3 hr plan became a stay-for-dinner-plan which subsequently became a sleepover plan
spent aftrenoon baking and night watching movies
gosh..watched troy at 3am in the morning!!
at the same time playing uno stacko.
Hang on..let's do this is chronological order:
Baking cookies:
Apple green dye turned into some nice pandan colour
Blood red dye turned into this nice babyskin-pink colour (not baby pink. pink in the sense the colour of baby skin), or better yet don;t turn up at all
Gingerbread man keeps beheading himself...tssssk
and star-like figure turned into nice normal circle
Great taste ok!!REALLI!
Watching movies:
There was white chicks..where mei laugh until she was banging the cusion with her fist so hard, and coincidently, the cusion was on my lap...=))
Than there was troy, which we watched at 3 am. Here goes the audio commentary:
"Oh, this scene is STUPID! I can;t beleive he did tht!"
"Oh, this is another STUPID scene! How dumb is tht?!"
"Oh god, this is STUPID!!! He does that STUPID thing again!"
"This is realluy really STUPID!!.."
e.t.c e.t.c. Get the idea?
haha!!=))
UNo stacko:
Punishment for loser: drink comcentrarted lemon concentrate
But lemon concentrate wans;t tht sour, just tastes like ammonia, so we revamped the punishment: MnMs dipped in Garlic Chillli Sauce
DON"T underestimate tht. it SUCKS!!! realli AWFUL!!!!!!! Mei had me eat tht 3 times cos i lost all 3 times!!(at least she did try it in the end..) Children, don;t try this at home. People doing this are skilled and had high edurance power.
Magic Cards (at 6am)
Discovered a pack of magic cards *yawns* at 6 am *yawns* and struggled to read the chinese instructions *yawns* and performed magic tricks! *yawns and gives blurry grin*
So then we went to watch Ever After at 7 am on the couch and the next thing you know, we woke up facing a blank screen. Yup, u guessed it, we fell asleep watching the show. By than, vcd one was over n it was 9 oclock, procceeded upstairs to sleep till 1 . sigh
Baking Cookies part 2: icing and sprinkles
This Cookie
This X'mas cookie was made by cookie
This X/'mas cookie was made by master cookie monsters
This X'mas cookie was made by master cookie makers
This X'mas cookie was lovingly made by master cookie makers
This X'mas cookie was lovingly made by master cookie makers. Each srpinkle
This X'mas cookie was lovingly made by master cookie makers Sam & Mei. Each Sprinkle
This X'mas cookie was lovingly made by master cookiemakers Sam (...) & Mei (...). Each Sprinkle and drop of icing was inserted..
This X'mas cookie was lovingly mde by master cookie makers Sam (..) and Mei (...) Each Sprinkle and drop of icing was painstakingly and manually inserted by hands of geniuses
*phew* done.
After 48 hours of cinnamon, bloody red dye, apple green die, cookie dough, rodent shit, cling wrap (economy cling wrap. meaning cheapcling wrap. meaning lousy cling wrap. meaning DIFFICULT AND TIME CONSUMGING to wrap cling wrap!!!). DONE.
not exactly. realli. theres STILL the packagging.
Anyway elmo realli sucks. when i turned telly on todae, he suddenly shrieked in his frequency 200 mega hz voice: YAY! I GOT AN EMAIL! and den i saw oscar shurdder. REALLI !! oscar SHUDDERED!!urgh..get the idea??
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
1:32 AM
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I;m so high!! Wheeeeee. HIghlight of the day: Mei's back. MEI;S BACK!!
Anyway some bothced plans for the weekend:
1) Fetch Mei Plan.
Sam Ling said let's go fetch mei cos mei wants to go for breakfast. So ok, i initirally wanted to gfetch mei too. So gathered ann, huimin, wanhui, wenqing, and sam ling, and told them mei;s flight is at 7 am, go changi airport to fetch her.
Few problems
(i) mei arh!! mixed up her arrival dae and arriveal time wrong. 26th, not 24th. and she landed at 6.30. So its like, 6.0, we recevie a nice msg from mei: i landed! waht abt breakfast??
(ii) Communication breakdown. Apprantly mei thought the plan was meet for breakfast at 8. The rest of us thought its fetch her at 7, den go for break with her. So...
Ann: Decded not to go. Carn wake up.
Huimin: called me at 6.40 and saed she;s not ging either for a eason or another
WQ; school. carn go
Sam ling: didnt go too. i dunno why
Wanhui: ohmann..i;m damn sorry wanhui. she went changi after mei left. 10 mins after mei left. i;m damn sorrie..realli. realli realli realli. treat her to something or somewhere.
Me: Initially decided not to go because Parents in bankok and theres no way I can go to catch the 5.30 train to Changi. 173 only starts servce at around 6.15-6.30? How am I going to make it to school by 8 anyway? And who's gg to wake me up. So anyway huimin calls my hp at 6.40 and i;m like: its stupid. i carn make it. i;m not going....
And went back to sleep.
Sis and maid woke me up at 7.00: arent u going to school?
Thoughts of getting ready, taking 173, walking out, taking 157 was taking its toll.
Groans and goes back to sleep
Jolts up at 7.10, tells sis: i feel like ponning school. i dun want to take bus all the wae there
(was realli kidding at first. i dun pon school for such stupid reasons usually)
Sis goes downstairs to tell uncle
Comes up: den do u want to go to macs for breakfast with us?
Me: *groans*are u kidding? i pon school so i can sleep!
goes back to sleep
Wakes up 8.30, feeling immensely guilty, at the same time knowing i'll prob nvr make it to school alreadi. mooped ard the kitchen..still struggling with my consceince. i mean, wat kind of stupid reason lah, not gong to school cos i;m lazy to take the pubnlic tranpsort. got my priorities all mixed up. finds 3 missed calls and 5 msgs on my phone. Sam Ling calls to sae she;'s at KAP with Mei
"KAP WITH MEI! GIF ME 15 MINS. I'LL; B THERE NOW"
took half an hour to walk to KAP cos its uselesswaiting 15 -20 mins for a 5 mins bus journey tht still requires another 10 mins walking jorney out. got scolded by sam ling for being stupid
" why din u just cut across the hdb flats to the ngee ann polygates?? i took oni 5-10 mins!"
sorrie!!!i lived here for 7 yrs and i DUNNO thres a short cut out! Aniwae Sam ling;s hose is still another 5 mins nearer to KAP den mine. Mei gives me peace wristband! I can now act poser *ahems*
Technically, poser= act cool?
and therefore, act poser = act act cool?
therefore since act and act cancel each other out, so act poser= cool.
yay!! i;m proud to act poser. WHAHAHAHA
aniwae its light blue with peace in 5 diff lang and i like it onli for one reason: sg prob doesnt sell it with the 5 lang.
( i;m not cool conscious at all ok!)
oh, and she's got a UN flag for us too *waves UN flag* whahah. playing with sam ling;s one. dicussing hundred and one waes to put her UN status to good use..eps when she;s crashing. can sae some stuff like how she needs to report back to UN hq and funni stuff. =PP i miss her tht much.
pat came and sam ling left. Went to my house, and asked mei if she, by any chance, knew the short cut to sam ling;s house so tht i acn go home from there.And she was like..yeah..i htink.( ieneded someone else to lead me home!!)
but aniwae..she led us thru this wae tht involved thrudging through tall grass, cross wide ravines (ok, so it was onli a drain. but it was damn wide!) intruding ppl's property, tht took twice as long as i took to get to KAP in the first place.
played uno stacko *releives memory of cookie making sleepover*
where we did tht mnm forfeit to dip the mnms in to garlic chillie? and the last time i got forfieted so many thousand times? this time mei kenaed. HAHAHA!
watched farewell videos of 4c2? and watcehd pat play harry potter
then they left. carn wait to see mei tmr. and ann and huimin and so on again. AGAIN. yay.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
12:21 AM
# # # Friday, March 25, 2005
I;m going to study dog behavious science in future. dogs are so cute and amusing. oscar tht is. was observing him sleeping in the afternoon. sheesh, it must b awful to haf such sensitive hearing and smelling huh. he wakes up at the slightest movement! disturbed sleep is no good for the mind =P
aniwae my sis was reading papers on the floor after dinner and eating apples. and oscar was mad at her for ignoring him and not giving him ani to eat. So...
Oscar:*steps both front feet on papers*
sis:*looks up*get OFF oscar.get OFF. you;re stepping on the papers. shoo.
Oscar:*lies down on papers and looks around*
Sis:get OFF! DON;T lie on the papers
Oscar: *rests his head on one of this leg and looks another direction*
Sis:i want to read the papers!!
Oscar:*adjusts the postition of his head on his leg*
Sis: oscar!! get off!!! *goes behind and tweaks his tail*
Oscar*head immediately hjolts up. as if startled, like..hu tweaked my tail*
Sis: get OFF oscar!
Oscar:looks ahead in a distance, looks at me, looks outside the window, den loks at me again**goes backto sleep..on papers*
Sis: *rant rant rant rant rant*
HAHAHA! which brings me back to the dae iwas mugging phys..and got so sick of it i looked up from the nots and saw oscar..and started obserivng his behavious and was highly amused.and before i knew it...it was alreadi half an hour. HALF AN HOUR TO OBSERVE A DOG FIND A SLEEPING PLACE TO REST. =PPP
had stuff to sae..but i forgot wat leh..hehehehe
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
7:27 PM
# # # Thursday, March 24, 2005
JAE is evil. Mark my words.
Situation from what i gather now is like..pockets of rafflesian resistance going on in other jcs. Looking at the turnover rate of RJC majkes me sad. esp when other jcs haf vastly different cultures and standerds.the feeling must b trapped, desperate, and helpelss. i dunno. i think its torture. JAE tht is.
I;m just glad i didnt go to the go todae and see the tortured looks on ppl's faces, judging by accounts by many many others.
Anyway, geri and huimin got in!!GERI GETS TO STAY, HUIMIN GETS TO GO TO SC!
and i;m dammit happy, cos i htink both of them worked damn hard for it and they deserved it.
Saw huimin at bendemmer when i was with class and was still fretting voer the results of the appeals. Then i saw huimin rushing here and felt damn it happy for her. rushed towards her and hugged her. Then my class gals behind started clapping. LOLLL!!1 happy news in the face of all th depression. i dunno how to put it..but like for the typical rj student putting them in another school is a rude cultural shock, and its not easy to accept too. carn get out of it, carn do anithing about it. its miserable to feel trpaped and hepless
Saw geri later..ran up and hugged her!! (class gals egging me on and clapping again. LOLL!)
cheryl"hug? dun hug!"
*geri runs up to hug cheryl*
cheryl; dun hug dun hug! wat r u doing! later ppl sae crez ppl are les and crazy
ahahaha!!
den myclass gals all came to hug geri (they love her to bits)
himin came up..and 4 of us hugged. 4c2 forever! hahaha
Ju yuan from og got in too. just read from his blog. =very very happy. in the face of the bad news...this kind of thing just makes my dae. in fact i think if u gif me any stranger, lemme listen to him complain abt the new jc for 10 mins, den tell me his appela back to rj got accepted, i;d bhappy the entire dae. so despite the fact i;m not close to my og and relations bet og and sam is strained (to the effect tht i dun even dare to congratulate ppl), i;m still damn happy =) [ok, i know my bahaviour in og these past daes is damn atrocious. dragging ofelia to my og, allowing to b dragged away from my og, deliberaltly ponning o2 (all with valid reason ok!), sitting with class, behaving damn stupidly =PP ..half of these offenses deliberate. wful person huh? just when i swore on wed to try and participate enthuly on thurs]
Sad thing is, chinnie din get it. It just dawned on me 7 hrs after the news tht ytht time we spent at novena was the first and last, and i enjoyed myself so much and was so looking forward to spending more times like this later in the next 2 yrs. i'll miss u chinnie. loads. i'll gather a petition for you, and helpand supoort u in the reappeal if u want to. i will nvr forget wat i do with u and the help u rendered me thru these 3 mths.
*yawns* tired, anyway ohrase of the dae: life has to move on (courtesy of zhenghao)
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
11:24 PM
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tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
1:09 AM
# # # Tuesday, March 22, 2005
I love being a Crescentian =)
First things first:
Disclaimer: Any offense taken by any person Crescentian or non Crescentian is not intentional. =)
I love being a Crescentian. This fact was reaffirmed today
.[23rd march: okok, i'll continue blogging. sighhh. so much to say] Went out with Geri Cheryl Huimin. aDetails of outing later. This is what made me proud of being a Crescentian. Went to Bibi and Baba to seek out RJ uniform and saw a girl..rather a few girls..from a certain *ahem* girl's secondary school.
Sorry. No offense. But some people's attitude really irks me. I won't say I never seen such people before. Crescent sure has them too. BUt i never saw them on such a large scale, or so typical in a school culture. The manner and behaviour...sheesh. So most wore clothes which made them look damn hiao. NOt that they had the figure. They didn;t. I;m not trying to be an old conservative prune here. BUt seriously...BRUSH UP ON UR DRESS SENSE. And make up. Its ok to be a little vain. We're girls after all. MAke up at this age is pretty normal for some. BUt AWFUL MAKE UP. sheesh. get some tips!!And the way this certain girl talks..drawling in a faked accent...Jiayi told me she sees RJ people on the bus on the wae to school each morning putting on makeup. I;m not suggesting anithng, or implyig anithing. really. hmm.
So then we were discussing the merits of Crescentians. I said Crecentian were the most down to earth people, and Geri said her frens saed the same thing. I would think so. And anyway, met someone else i knew on the way home. She was vain too, no doubt, but at elast she dressed right, she dressed to flaunt, and her makeup set out to accentuate rather then disfigure *shudder*. i actually felt a sense of pride. Here's my thoughts.
Crescentians don;t have the distinction of being known for superb figures or ravishing beauty, at elast crescentians in rj don;t (unlike nj where the past 2 prom queens are all crescentians or jj where crescentians are one of the most desirable ),. but at least we are loaded with sense. apparntly crescentians haf this distinctive wae of sitting and walking(me esp), and we;re the onli girls hu feel the obligation to wear shorts underneath the skirt as a school, but i dun care.i like the image i think, and i liked it when denise and liesel and wanhui saed only crescent girls were the ones taking aprt actively in pe and sports (exception of me lah, but heck =)) ). I wouldnt; have wanted to spend my past 4 yrs in aniwhere else and i;m suddenly feeling more proud then ever of wearing this awful colour combinatoin. (yeah..i;m still not proud of the colour combination. unique? whu are we kidding man =P) i like the culture and the typicality in such an environment imposed on us. And oh, we haf a distinctive sense of humour too. Something i carn find in anione else.
So anyway yesterday;s outing with huimin geri and cheryl is great. remninded me of post Os outing. just without ann, mei, wanhui, liesel =PP. Went to california pizza jkitchen for lunch, cos geri had a $20 voucher. thank god she did!! lunch bill fcame up to $60++ bucks. Anyway we were sitting nearby this automated door, and geri reminded us of the O2 trailer, where this person waved her hands in the air, and the chair nearby toppled over. So during the lunch, a person walked past the automated door, and the automated door flew open. i looked, and timed it exactly when the door was fully open, i threw my hands in the air and commandd: CLOSE! and the door closed. wow! i have the power of magic! HAHAHAHAHA
Geri: i think it would b more impressive if there wasn;t a sticker "automated door" pasted on it. HAHAHA!!
played with it the entire lunch =))
Aniwae this was what made my day yesterdae. Cheryl is appealing to Ac. In the case tht geri;s appeal carn get thru, she;s going to ac, cheryl will go to ac with her. And i;m touched. I really am. Its heartwarming, and pulls away at your heart strings. (is there such a phrase?), which, by the way, brings me to the topic of 4c2:
When I tell people (my classmates, in particular) geri and cheryl was not in my clique in sec4, its alwaes met with some kind of shock or another. Which then leads me to reflect on the unique relationships we shared within our class. Its hard to explain..how we alwaes went out during dec holidaes tgt, technically shared a hilton room, going home tgt often in rjc, spent substantial amount of time tgt, but when u reflect..u realise tht we were not frm the csame clique. Its hard to explain how the cliques merged and mixed, tht certian cliques in our class did not have clearly drawn and tough borders and membranes enclosing them. rather, its impervious and allowed for mixing and merging to occur. I;ll never find a person, or rather a whoel class of ppl liket htat anywhere else.
Which in turn leads me to next point. sorry ann! for dissppointing you again. i realli couldnt make it! sighh.,.shall call her later?
And another point. MEI IS COMING BACK. 3 MORE DAYS. 3 MORE DAYS.
So that was yesterday.
Today:
O2 is a dismal affair. A very VERY dismal affair. One fifth of the population was not around to behin with. After attendance taking, HAlf the people in the indoor gym got up to leave. Cases of mass ponning, as an og, or as half an og, to watch movie or something. had to take measures like locking the doors and stationing teachers. So then occured ponnig of people to the canteen and places around the school. Sheesh. Apparantly its everywhere in sg lah. JAE is evil.
Geri came back to crash. The entire place was likle a war zone, like some devestation after a battle. and there was moe screw up. (7-4 carn get in? something wrong!) And everywhere there was ppl posted to rj but unhappy woith their posting, and there was people from 1st intake hu came back..n the place was like..dead lah..basically. Those hu wanted to be in rj werent enjoying themselves aniwae. Adn its like, you go around asking "did u get in?""no, appleaing"the whole place was sad. sad . sad.
oh, i;mdamn sorry for the O2 comittee too. sigh. i swear, SWEAR i'll take part enthuly in tmrs og acitivites.
i suppose i shld bgrateful for getting to stay in rj. and i am. its not so much the rafflesion spirit, like wat jasmine saed, its the ppl ard. it would be hell to mix around again and try to socialise again and establish ur identity and character again.
Anyway ask me last week wat i thought abt rj and i would have told u "hostile". ask me now...i think i uncovered more warmth in my class, gradually. Thanks to all hu entertained me during O2 today (sheesh..i sent 70 msgs!)
Anyway, heres good luck to all hu;s appealing: Geri, Chinnie, and all those from my OG. Sheesh. i sincerely hope all ur appeals get thru. turnover rate fr rj this yr is damn high. i tink i just gained a deeper insight on how ppl are feeling now. i understand deeper the unacceptance. its evil. and cruel. to ask people to change school in 3 mths. i know how my cousin must haf felt now. and there are worst off people.
Abit of digressing btw:
stop rebelling agaisnt pragmaticism. Sometimes it is the best wae. admit it, and stop being childish. oh wait..thnx ofelia. thnks loads for all ur help todae =))
btw, srp is getting less intimidating =))
much to b gateful for
p.s.LONG ENTRY KETING!
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
7:55 PM
# # # Thursday, March 17, 2005
arh!!! so many outings =(
Tues: OG outing and 4c2 outing (one ponned, one cancelled)
Fri: waisze's bdae(pending permission)
Sat: Class outing(allowed, but unplanned, un finalized)
NExt Sun: Mei;s coming back outing (MUST GO NO MATTER WAT)
Really really hope can go tmr!!!! long loong time b4 i went out with them (i.e. waisze gel sarah shir )and i owe waisze at least this much. I WANT TO GOOOO!!! but i;m too scared to go ask cos i;m scared of being rejected. coward sam.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
8:05 PM
# # #
Ok, my overdue entry to ann. sorrie ann!! i really realy meant to do it last night!
Tribute to Dear AnnMiss u LOADS ann. i;m serious!! i'll never never find a replacement or a friend like u. Ever. Not in RJ or anywhere else.
I;m sorrie for being a damn lousy fren k. I carn go swmming with u, carn go to barker carnival with u, din go to buy zen with u in the end, kept pestering u to stay online, to not hang up the phone...oh, and i carn even type out this tribute by last night
I;m still damn it grateful for u for turning up the other dae, ryshing all the wae from barker to attend disney on ice with me k, realli realli. And rmb tht time u accompanied me an entire dae during the crez art awareness dae, and when u were enjoying urself during the hiphop dance thingy i had to leave like, 10 mins into the dance, and u just left with me. and i carn gif u a lift in the end?sheesh ann.
And i miss u like shit. i miss doing lame stuff with u, and i nvr knew how much i miss u until i go out with u again. and again. and again. and i underestimate it again and again.i dunno k, i just feel so at ease and comfortable hanging out with u. sheesh. i think i even miss doing history with u over the phone and online (although i still HATE HISTORY. bleagh) i even miss ur insensitivity!!!
(me: sheesh..phys mcq is soo hard. i;m going to fail. *on the verge of crying*
u: usld do the red book sam *air or reproach* i did it and i can do like, everything in the exam) =PP
and imiss u being the sole non-competitive person in the air of competition in 4c2. i miss sitting beside u in hist where we can bitch abt ppl behind. and rushing down to the canteen with u and mei and huimin. and u sitting next to me when u and jy quarrel (kinda often huh?) i STILL distinctly rmb u suckign up to ow swee ln and still find it reri reri amusing =) i mean, no one does tht!!
arh, shit, i foudn the correct word for u. tsk, how slow. special. *nods* when mei comes back we'll go out PROPERLY nad i'lltreat u PROPERLY(start saving now !! arhh!!) and i promise this will not be empty words or empty promises. i promise.
love u ann!1!
-end of tribute-
p.s. and no, i din type it just cos u asked me to. i mean every word of it.
aniwe i suddenly am missing playing maple story online with huimin and mei until wee hours. where i left huimin waiting by the tree tops of eli-god-knows-wat while i kept disspearing. =P and fighting stupid mushroom tops in tht theif town. oh shit, den i miss the time mei slept over when she first introed me the game. and then i think of cookies. of rushing them out. of tht torturous 1 week b4 she left. oh damn. but nvm, she;s coming back!!
she's coming back!! 1 more week!! 26th!!
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
1:29 AM
# # # Tuesday, March 15, 2005
arh...have been pestered to update to entertain ppl as bored as me *looks meaningfully at keting and june* so fine, shall attmpt to squeeze watever interesting stuff there is from these dull and still 2 days.
Nothing meaningful or interesting or nique or anithing along these lines so far, and it'll continue like tht until this sat;s class outing and then the 26th of march (*RISES UP IN LOUD CHEERS*!!!!mei;s coming back!!!)
firt things first, i;m damn guilty and sorry for losing my phone. parents din sae anithing, mum just made disapproving noise, but yeah i;m STILL guilty and feeling reri reri reri bad.and i miss ny phone!! i gather i shld gif it a name and start mourning for the lost of it. uh, i dunno, sarah named her phone amandy (like, a cross between amanda and mandy). i dunno, mayb, like, bluey after ginny's grandma;'s dog? hmmm..*deep in thought* sounds good. So then we start mourning:
As we lay you down to sleep...
uh...sheesh!!!i carn rmb the exact words!!
arh..watever..poor old nokia phone..i miss it :'(
anyway got a replacement phone from my aunt. its nice, LG, has colour, good resolution, camera, and alreadi stores nice cute photoes of oscar *grinz* just waiting to reactivate my sim card.
next up, sats outing. sheesh, i havent finalised ANITHING and ;m damn scared its going to turn out to b a fialure. sommore i carn change my piano on sundae morning and i think i;m going to haf to like, pack all of them in KAP at 8 or something. but yeah, still looking forward nevertheelss. *smiles*
ohh, and sundae was fun. went to gma's house and actualyl CONCENTRATED on doing work for once rather then being istracted by msn (theres too many ppl onmsn!!!) den when i was finally SIAN, called ginny and watched Rescue Operation Bunny Family. (NO, its not a show u doofus, *bonks head with newsapper) was transporting her bro's rabbits back to his hostel. whoa!
first, it was night. the whole process was like refugees running away ok
den they had to carry 2 cages and 1 box down from the 16th floor, and be careful of the mother rabit killing the baby rabbit
argh..process is too copmlicated. but its like refugess running away from enemies or something in the death of the night =)
aniwae thnx ginny, for ur bro;s phys books. i can now effectively sae i got the entire set of sc tb for free =))
aniwae my dad is back *beams* but i havent got a bdae prez for him =( went to bkt timah plaza todae trying to get something, but all the shop[s were close, waited from 8.30 to 10 and sgips were STILL close. in the end was like, heck, i'll go west mall later in the dae. but argh, its so hot and i;'m like, forget it, i'll go tmr after srp. yup =))
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
7:34 PM
# # # Sunday, March 13, 2005
Time passes damn fast. Not talking abt 4c2 and post-Olevel activities(i.e.chalet grad night e.t.c.). Those seem like a looong time ago, like another world altogether. BUt it seemed just like yesterday when mei left and i was moping like shit, or yesterday when i was playing maple story to no end with huimin, or yesterday when o was suffering from orientation. And now mei's coming back already, and serios work is gong to start (project work. BLEAGHHHH)Was reading certain bloggina rchives, and realise how not-so-long ago it was when mei left, and now she;s returning alredi.too fast for words =P
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
11:35 AM
# # # Saturday, March 12, 2005
arh..flag day today. couple of things happened
1) Chinnie: let's go somerset. there's the working crowd there..the last time i went we filled the bag reri fast!!!
And so i walked behind somerset, and saw
singtel,
singapore power, and so on offices. arh. good. office buildings. More offices workers. But then please scrutinize the details carefully.
singtel
singapore power. all civil services goondu. it means 5 day work week now!!!!! so yeah..=) not manuy ppl. went from orchard to somerset to raffles place den walked to city hall and back to orchard den to somerset..=PP
2) lost kittne. theres this super cute and tiny kitten. followed these 3 woma u p the steps to the mrt, but apprarntly din belong to them. so they wetre likem carrying the kitten to the side, den the kitten follow them back, den they carried the kitten away again, adn the kitten followed them back..and so on..until they carried it away and ran off down the escalator into the mrt station. den the kitten dun dare to go own he escalator too..and he just kept meowing loudly and pathetically at the top. poor thing~~! so chnnie and i nice good ol souls went all the way to centrepoint to get it a nice carton of milk...and went back to find tht its gone. hopefully some good ol soul (like us =P) brought it home abd took good care of it =))'
3) went to padang. saw ppl playing softball. i dunno..i somehow expected to see ppl i noe..i dunno hu i expected to see..i just expected to see ppl i noe. so i saw some ri guys..i looked ard..nope..noone i shld noe...den i walked abit ahead..den this awfulyl familier person was there. mrs heng!!! den i saw this grp of red-jerseyed girls. arh. crez softball team. den this gal waved to me..and i dunno hu isit!!i just waved back lah (took me 2 hrs to recall. was eating later when i suddenly went: oh!! i noe hu isit alreadi!! its tht gal i peer tutored on wed!!!), den saw a crescentian girl in full u walking towards padang too. so went and asked tht girl and her grandfather for donations. called chinnie over cos rgs ppl having softball match too. but din dare appraoch the team or mrs heng. bleagh.
4) sigh. SIGH. siiighhhhhh. went to raffles city for a mini break. bought sausage and something, went to sit by the fountain. received a msg from keting, replied her, and shoved the phone into m ypocket. barely 5 minutes later, i got up, threw away the rubbish, and took the escalator up. i brealy took 5 steps when: SHIT! WHERES MY PHONE!
went back downstairs. the woman manning the store in front of us dunon where isit. the man hu was stting with his grandson where i just sat dunno nvr saw it. its not in the dustbin either. nor with the concierge.
Conclusion: i BET it was deliberately stolen. it prob fell out of my pocket and soemone took it.(hu wants to take my phone aniwae. its not reri good wat) cos when i called it it was turned off alreadi. sigh. depresesd. anione has a spare phone to lend me? or has ani $0 phone to recommend me?
Lesson from ann: "WHY U GO AND PUT UR PHONE IN THE CREZ SCH U POCKET?!! I NVR DO THT! STUPID LAH U!THE POCKET HOLE IS ENLARGED BY SO MYCH LAH!"
fine fine..i shld haf learnt from all the times i lost my wallet and dropped it lah huh.
5) met mrs chan!!!! argh!!!was sellign flags at the bottom of the escaltor..when she came with her husband and daughter =)) so qiao =))
ok..enxt up. disney on ice.
ALADDIN IS CUTEE!! AND HANDSOMEEE!!! ok, ann prefers prince charming in cinderella. i think cinderella is prettier though.=P i want to learn ice skating!! it looks effortless and smooth =))
thing is, i miss ann to bits. i dun noe how much i miss her until i go out with her. how many ppl in rj will go
Snow white's wicketd witch: MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL! HU;S THE FAIREST OF THEMN ALL!
ann: *SHOUTS OUT* ME!!
seriouslt! she did! and we were sitting damn in front too!!
den the genie went off the skating ring to sit with the audence..and ann wa slike: whyt nvr come and sit with me here!!!?
den we rushed out when it was over to shake the hands of the ice skaters, and ann wanted to tell prince charmingL YOU'RE SO HANDSOME! hahahah!
haha!! ann!! i miss ur guts, ur sense of humour, everything!! now i think of it,everythign u made me pay for u (u exist to suck my money u see),. half ur movie ticket, ur lunch treats,,and everything..is worth it. its worth all ur company in the world. the next time i see u i;m going to treat u properly k..a proper proper lunch treat *nods* i promise it.
ooh..ann was liek: the guy beside me is rather cute
me: *looks to her left expecting a teenage handsome guy or something* *coughs* *its a 8 yr old caucasion*
ann:good looking right? just the glasses onli
-intermission-
*ann comes backl to find tht the boy has changed place with his sister*
whahah! i bet he thought tht ann was a paedofile or something
after seeing like..5 pairs of happy endings..i;j rather addicted to happy endngs. inspired rather. watever.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
6:52 PM
# # # Friday, March 11, 2005
*smiles* i met ginny again =)) seeing her realli puts things into perspectives for me =)) how? dun tell u. *sitcks out tongue* =P
Oh, met josef tan too. apparntly crescent gave up raffles mun for tchs mun, and so a thousand and one cresecentians were ard the bukit timah area (MY territory. get lost!! get lost!! ) haha..nah..kidding. so of course how CAN u go to bukit timah and not go kap? so josef tan was in front of kap with a few students, and he carn get a cab back to sch ( WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ) haha..no, i din mean tht too =P
oh yeha, and i feel damn stupid for actualyl doing
that. sheesh, HOW COULD I!!!!!! i SWEAR i;m not going to do it again. i SWEAR! I SWEAR! (and in case anione is thinking along the lines of chem test, nope..nothing to do with tests at all =))ihope wat i did is normal, though super foolish. i *hope* its normal. please let it b normal!!
arh, yestdae went for zhong ruan sectionals since i carn go on sat. *buries face in hands*
took a nice new zhong ruan which is
certainly a welcome change from those lousy toot fretless zhong ruans i'd been using. so i took it, and started playing this dumb note. Then theres no sound when plucked.and so istubbornly plucked harder althoughi
knew tht its cos i;m not pressing the string hard enuf. so it was like
"tawng. twang. twang. twang. TWEENNNNGGGGGG"
*er hu ppl lifts their heads*
*kevin looks in shock*
*liu qin ppl's heads wheel ard*
"bu hui ba..."
"*snicker snicker*"
"*grinz*"
arghhhh
keting: *hysterical alreadi*
kevin: *impassive face* nvm..now i can teach u how to replace string...*goes out to get string*
*comes back, strings zhong ruan, and tries to tune it*
*yi xuan comes in*
kevin: look wat happened *shows zhong ruan*
yixuan: *in shock for a full minute*
*senoir comes in*: ooh!! new zhong ruan! so nice!
kevin: and guessed what happend to it? *hysterical with laughter, red in the face and doubling over*
*sees the broken string i brought back for remembrance swining merrily at the side*
*groans*
shessh. ok, i exagterated it a
lil to entertain ppl =P
btw, STOP thinking of me in this way. i nvr seen more of thees sort of ppl at one go b4. for gods sake. i dun
think like u alright. stop
assuming i think like tht as well. i;m complaining abt my own stupidity. not cos of anithing else.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
8:21 PM
# # # Wednesday, March 09, 2005
arh..yest blogger was down..so this was my yest entry:
My nose is dead.
5 different scents was hitting me in all different directions, and taking turns to confuse my brain cells. Of course the leader of the pack is ofeli’as oceania. GOD. Its STRONG. And it does a double attack not only on the brain cells but on the nasal cells as well. Attacks it and strains it like anything. Sheesh.
Anyway. Congrats. You;ve done it. Made use of the intricate underlying webs to demonstrate contradictory perspectives. Thank you, for causing disillusions and confusion. Growls. my tolerance level is not wat it normally is. *shakes fist at world* STOP BLOODY CONSPIRING AGSINST ME!!! Call it a lack of sleep, cos thts wat usually happens during school term anyway. Bleagh. Too much going on. i dunon what to sae..bleagh.
Ok.gtg
And now for todayt;s
Went to meet ann!!
ANN!!! hahaha..met her for lunch and went for peer tutoring.
whahah,..i feel at home and superior and matured in crez..and ann;s ac uniform ROCKS!!! (sa's is even nicer though ann =) )
And i miss ann's escapades so much!! no one is as siao as her lah!!
Ann: *peers into a class where raymond phua is conducting lessons* HI MR PHUA!! DO U RMB ME?!
*walked away briskly*
Mr Phua: *comes out of class* wait gal! did i teach u b4?
Ann: yeah! i was in your class!!
Mr phua: what class were u in?
Ann: uh...uh..*whispers* sam, which class did he teach? uh...4G1~!!
Mr pHua: 4g1? mr miranda's class?
Ann: uh..yeah?
Mr phuaL idun think so. don;t lie to me arh..i noe u;re not in his class *returns to his classroom*
ANn arh!! so daring =))
Went to talk to mr loh!!!i miss him sooo much!!! his so nice k!! he keep asking us how he can improve as a teacher!!
Me: MR loh!! i miss u!! i;m not used to my teachers now! My fren saes the NJ mahts lecturer is reri sissy (demonstrates sissy action)
Mr LOh: haha! den he;'ll go like" if u all don;t sit properly i cry" isit? haha!
Me: *grinz* haha! *leans back comfortably and opens my legs wide (NOT ON PURPOSE K!! it was a conditioned reflex)*
Ann: hey! did ur lecturers sae tht as a lecturer they can see everything?
Me; no! but my classmates sae i dun sit or stand or walklike a girl =(
mR lOH: *nods solumnely*
Me: WHAT?1 U MEAN U AGREE MR LOH?!
HIm: Huh??oh nonono..
his so cute =)
Me: mr loh, when r u getting married?
him: tsk..why keep asking
me: if u haf trouble getting married marry zakiah
himL den must wear the..tht thing *does action to his head*
AnnL huh? what?
him: tht thing..wat do u call tht..arh! songkok!
*grinz* and he was still udner the naive impression tht mei doesnt copy work =))
Saw ppl practicing some funni dance in the parade sq. it was a super boring dance lah, and ann just when: sam, on the count of three, we shout : SO BORING across the parade sq k. and soo..
one, two, three, SO BORING!!!! =PP
Danced half the greased lightning with zakiah =))
And i miss taking an hour to go home. reached shell at 6 (left sch at 5.30) and felt so surprised. i expected to b home like, late!! =)) now for maths test. sheesh.
p.s.oh, btw, i STILL think i;m slighted. STOP SLIGHTING ME!!
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
6:35 PM
# # # Sunday, March 06, 2005
OK, just one thing to blog about today
Liesel is sending me the teachers reactions (98 000 KB!! NO JOKE!!) to our skit last yr for the god knows how manyth time, and tht does not include the attempts i made in trying to dl it from zakiah. Add in all the bogus attempts u'll get ard 20 times or so. no exaggeration. Any she;s sending the file to my sis com, which icarn use for casual purposes, so hafta live with no msn for a night =P
What i wanted to blog abt todae: nice sky. =p yeah yeah, wats new. but seriously. went out walking oscar again (his growling and twitching and yepping and god knows what. i think his complaining i neglect him) . nice cloudy night. much of the sky is shrouded in clouds aniwae. thing abt the clouds is, they carry a slight tinge of reddis orange. dunno why, but yeah. den through some parts where clouds are reduced from thick fluff into threadbare wisps, u can see the sky. which is like..uh..(sorrie,..lousy vocab)..u noe when u use poster colours? u squeeze some navy blue, den add water, the colour of the sky is like when u add too much water, and u paint, den its like..the colour is reri light..but its still navy blue. argh. complex. so anyway, add to the nice sky thers a blustering wind (how do u spell tht?) which is actuyally COOL. when i sae cool i mean it actually carries some chill in it. (ok lah, chill is too extreme. but yeah!! it carries something cooling, and not just blow for the sake of blowing) den in the nice quiet neighbourhood, its heartwarming to see ppl gathering as a family behind some window, and yellow light streams out (yesh,...yellowloght..i HATE white light.the feeling is incorrect when its white light) Then theres this family hu just recently dug a pool in their garden, and then they were having dinner by the poolside. nice quiet affiar, the pool was lited up by yellow lamps underwater, and the serenity of the water adds to the atmosphere =) behind this other house, theres this huugee tree (raintree or something..those super common ones u see at the roadside?) and a solitary swing hangs from one of the branches. arh. serenity. yup. the right time to play david lanz =)
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
8:24 PM
# # # Saturday, March 05, 2005
CO is getting more fulfilling =)
and the seniors are damn nice. yup =))
below is crap. none of u reading my blog will undetstand, so save ur time, turn off ur coms, go do some tutorials instead k? =)
aniwae i;m getting damn it scared
reri scarerd
seeking isolation, and
being judgemental becomes the norm.
but even being jugemental now gives me 2nd thoughts.
i beleive tht pasts shld not b forgotten, but they shld not impede and obstruct developments
i beelvie tht everyone shld b given a 2nd chance for reevalutaion, if not, a 3rd, 4th and 5th
pity i seem alone in tht beleif
and the past is coming back to haunt too
bit by bit, slowly by slowly. the fact tht i had the same scare and rude shock 3 times this week...its a sign, its an omen
people strive for some sort of image or character they wish to be. some wants to look like they are well informed, some wants to b literary whiz, or some just wants to appear all rounder. some want to look smart, and so on. all i ask for is a rational mind, and the ability to think and emphatize, and not b so narrow minded. seriously though, most ppl are not like tht, and thts when u carn agree with ppl. and get irritated. thts where u haf to constantly remind ursef of sam;s 5th [hilosophyL:
thou halt not scorn watever lah. sheesh
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
1:11 PM
# # #
You made my day ginny =)
No matter how much i pissed my phys tutor off today cos my hp kept beeping during his lesson, and he knew that i asked opermission to go to the toilet cos i wanted to answer my phone, and that i rushed thru my phys quiz to get out of his lesson.
No amtter how bad an impression i must haf left with the crscent admin making them get a signature for me even though i din complete tht darned applciation form
No matter how guilty and bad i feel to make my dad miss a whole moring of work just to help me with tht darned application form
No matter how bad
politics can get (worst, much much worst then I though it can get. How many people are there, for gods sake, and this kind of thing actually can happen?)
No matter how dissatisfied i am with the fact tht people are leacing the alcss and more different people comeing in
No matter how unaccopmlished I feel after today cos i did nothing 9as usual)
I still went to lie on my bed with a smile. Cause I kept reaclling todae's meeting with u.
I dunno if you read my reply to ur post on ur blog, but here;s me telling you this k, i nvr for once felt like i was troubled. i suppose thts cos its worth it. every single second i spent. its worth it, if the returns include swimming dates, times at KAP, cold storage, venezia, 970, studying li until 2, and a great fren and companion. realli realli realli. (sheesh, my vocab is reduced to this??!!) i don;t feel like i realli did tht much k, but whatever it is, you have been there for me too, and THANKS LOADS. THANKS ALOT. really. i mean it. you carn forget those times u taped for me every show on the list, den recorded everything in such systematic order, so that it was more ocnvenietn for me to watch, and i carn even tape tht simple one week of holland v. the last ep i taped was in black and white! bleagh!!! i realli din expect such gratitude. watever the case, thnks alot too k!! *sob* y arent u in the same sch!!! =)
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
12:37 AM
# # # Friday, March 04, 2005
i met with ginny again!! yay!! =)))
And gel and waisze crashed todae!!! waisze 4 the 2nd time! yest sarah crashed too!! whahaha!!
Aniwae something has changed my perspective. NOw theres a tussle between Sam's Philosophy #5 and Sam's psychology. Philosophy#5: thou shalt not scorn. psychology: someimtes u carn help it. bleagh. i suppose just keeo my thoughts to myself, dun let them out, or me myself will get scorned too. bleagh
i feel lke i seen a ghost. and its not the first time. *SCREAMS!!!*
*grinz* aniwae yeah..ppl are leaving, and i;m trying to make them stay. STAY PEOPLE. PLEASEEEEEE. ooh..and i uncovered some secrets abt the class =(
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
5:40 PM
# # # Tuesday, March 01, 2005
173 is sickeningly deceptive *growls*
It conspires against you in the least obvius ways.
First it makes sure its the ONLY bus serving the bus stop outside my house, making it COMPULSARY to take tht cursed bus.
Then it'll PURPOSELY conspire with ALL the other tibs buses and SMRT to make sure that they'll LEAVE 1.30 minutes after the other tibs bus and mrt arrives, so much so the ppl taking 173 will be like:
0 mins: leave mrt or other tib bus
1 min: sees 173, which had arrived B4 their bus or mrt
1.003 mins (reaction time is 0.3 sec see) chases after the bus
1.30: bus drives off leaving ppl (i.e. me) in a cloud of dust
so much so that i spent half my life already chasing buses, missing busrs, and waiting for buses.
Then 173 will have this tracking radar to see what buses i;m taking, den they'll mass annoucne to them to not pick me up. *nods*
The worst thing is they DECEIVE ppl. 173 will keep ZOOMING by when you;re not taking it, or the one going the other direction will come. Then riht after you wait for 20 minutes(or what sesm like eternity) to get on the bus, another bus will happily ramble up the lane to the now-empty busstop.
actually came online to blog abt somethine much much more sombre. but its so late, and i swore not to come online and i;vr been online for 1 and a half hours *bleagh* another day den. just tht i feel like the worlds biggest twit, like i din do my best and utmost. [and no, i;m NOT toking abt Os results. Os is old news (hey! oxymoron!)] i definitely could haf done more. aNow i feel guilty and bad, and to quote huimin: hao ren nan zuo.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
12:05 PM
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Going out with Ann and Huimin is nostalgic.
And fun.
Ok, o i kept up with the tradition of meeting late (45 mins this time) =)
Went for lunch at cine, and went shopping.
2 months at RJ taught me humility. Don;t ask me how, don;t ask me why. I;m not going to tell u (so there! =)) Cause i never reflected so much before.
Took neoprints, for once in our 3 yrs of frenship, and how many times we;ve gone out tgt, i realised i dun haf neoeprints of huimin OR ann. or mei for tht matter. now i do =)
Pre-hall scenario:
Cheryl: Just now someone in the GO told mrs tan top in our class is 6th in the level!!
Me: *looks ard for possible ppl**envy, jealousy, and speculation of hu could it be*
Mr Gary Tan: where's liping?? *waves of envy in class: wow..she must have did well*
Mrs Tang: The top 12 later please go to conference room *snatches of conversation and speculations*
Someone: I just heard ms goon congratulating micehlel savage!!
Others: wow, she must haf done well.
Sam: *louder heartbeats* * whines**sighs*
in general, i was damn scared. and the atmosphere and speculations are not helping. cos i;m damn scared of dissappointment.
2.00: Mrs tang's talk
argh...so much crap!! stop talking!!!
2.10: Mrs Lee: announce results...and so on...
Sam: stones. disbeleif. i STILL can't beleive it.
Ok, I won't say i'm very proud of my results. Its nothing to be proud of, because its not exceptionally good, but when I say its nothing to be proud of, I don't mean I'm not happy or satisfied with it. Differentiate proud of results and proud of oneself. I'm not going to go: Oh, i could have done better," or "Oh, why didn't i do better", or "Oh, its STILL not good enough, I MUST/should have gotten 10 A1s". Nah, that's superficial, inconsiderate, insensitive, and its ingratitude. I'm pretty satisfied =), yup =), and i'm pretty grateful too. The philosophy that I came up with after the tsunami-ultra-lucky entry was,
with gratitude comes satisfaction. It was actually a message to people to tell them to count their blessings, only then will satisfaction and thus, happiness ensue. Today I suppose and realise its true for the other way round too. I'm damn grateful to Crescent. Yesh. All the teachers and frens I made. O lvl results really marked and signified the end of the long marathon of secondary education. It officially closed and concluded all acheivements and benefits that I can reap out of Crescent. Its time for a new phase, to let go of Crescent, and concentrate on
now. It does seem like a loong way, not when you're actually RUNNING the marathon, but at the end of it when you look back, reflect, and think twice. Think about the first few friends I made, how I first got to know amazing people like Ginny, WQ, Mei in sec2, then, Gel and Wai in choir, Huimin, Ann in Sec3. Its this gut feeling that these freinds I made will remain life long friends, despite what people say about: Your JC and University friends are the most important and will b your lifelong friends. Think about all the projects that I took part in, from Maths Olympiad trainings all the way in Yishun with Mei, to Cancer Project attachments in an actual doctor's clinic and hospital with WQ and Mei, it was fun and seemed short while it lasted, but as you think back, you realise that you actually came a looong way. I think the length of time you
feel you spend is inversely proportional to the length of the list of accomplishments you want to and tried to achieve. Then I think about me actually
being the person i envied in the snippt of conversation up there. It seems like a fluke. I can't beleieve it myself, up till now, 12 hours after the collection of results. I can't beleive how long I've come either, that this would be the end to my stint at Crescent. Its been a fulfilling 4 years, and I'm proud of that, that I made full use of my 4 years at Crescent. Thanks for all the congrats people. Thanks for everything from the past 4 years *smiles*.
Went to watch Howl's Moving Castle with Huimin, Cheryl, Tricia, Wanhui. (Was supposed to go outw ith Ann, but that freaking lazy toot person went home without waiting for me =( annnnnn *whines* )
Review of Howl's Moving Castle:
Ending was DAMN STUPID! Really!! But Turnip head is sooo cute!!! And its damn touching (No cheyrl, its NOT my first anime!!! Its NOT!!!I watch Sprited away, Ayashi No Ceres e.t.c.). Ok, fine, Howl was cute. But please ok, HIS NOT REAL!!!
But what really made me think:
1) It made me more against war then ever. I can't stand it. I couln't stand studying history cause I found the entire war issue damn sad. I can;t stand scenes of men perishing in a ship blown to smithereens. These are people with FAMILIES god damn it.I can't stand the sight of the
ship itself being blown apart, cause I feel damn sad for the wastage of materials. Its as if the materials themself has lives, and to see them being reduced to pathetic nothingness...
I suppose what really makes me sad about this kind of thing is the lost of lives. Not lost of lives as in those who died, but also the lost of
life. The presence of
life. Which is why I hate watching black and white films taken in the turn of the century *mutters mutters stupid GP documentry mutters mutters*, cos it hurts to think that in a few years time, the life being portrayed on tht very scene will be flattened by a few senseless bombs.
2) That most people do have pasts, and for people with pasts, its difficult to get rid of it. For the other people, the bystanders, the lesson here is that pasts
should b forgotten. and forgivven for tht matter. Its no good to dig into people's past and judge them for what they once were.
Whatever, its 2.50 in the morning, I'm rambling away.
Took my 2nd neoprint with HUimin for the day, this time with cheryl, wanhui, tricia. Machiens are more stressful then Olvl results.
1) They jabber away in Japanese. Yeha yeha, we ALL learn jap and take it as our first language and speak it in our free time (sheesh, we can't even speak or comprehend our own mother tongue with an apropriate standerd!)
2) The words are in japanese. Yeah, we all totally learn jap what.
3) THEY HAVE TIMERS!! i SSTILL dunno the point of the freaking timers!!!
"Wanhui!! Quick press this!! Press this!"
"NO, not nice!! That one!! WRite date!! WHyt never write date!!"
"ARh! Yo have 30 seconds left only!! Still haven't decorated 2 more photos!! Hurry Hurrrryyyyyy"
"Yucks!! Why is that so ugly!! Change! Dunno how to change?? Press that one!!"
=P. I;m going to bed *yawns* (happy reading keting!=) This entry doesnt realli concern u though...=))
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
1:07 AM
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