Monday, July 23, 2007
wayyy overdue posts =D
1. Seoul:
Seoul was good. Shopping was at insadong (where they sell crafts and arts and antiques and lovely handmade jewellry), dongdaemon (cheap stuff if you don't enter the shopping centres)...
sightseeing included the palace (which is seriously boring), and government building! Saw some presentation of theirs. Oh, there's a office of unification , haha, sounds so harry potter.
taking subway and travelling around myself is rather thrilling =D
2. Harry Potter:
Wheeee..finally read it!!Not too bad, great ending to the whole thing.
Watched the movie yest. For some reason or another, felt strangely exuberantly happy when the weasleys rebelled against umbridge!!! emma watson is so pretty and tht lady playing luna lovegood is so cute =PP
3. Driving
I PASSED wheee. Tester was really nice. Passed happily with 18 points =P And so all that's left is piano exam =D
One more month b4 i leave! or 3 wks. Sigh.
Realised what's making me so happy with life now is that I'm so thrilled and happy at minor minor things, like, a tiny boost of ego, a little bit more responsibity, a short meeting, short phone calls...and laughter. lots of laughter makes a happy sam =D
And then I wonder how long will it take for me to get all jaded and then it'll take more to satisfy me. And that's when I get my mum's point about having kids. When you've reached a certain age and you have more or less maximised your potential, den u pin your hopes on your kids, hoping to help them realise their dreams and maximise THEIR potential, and seeing them grow and succeed gives u as much as, or maybe even more, satisfaction than when you yourself is growing and progressing. Because this is the satisfaction that provides us with the drive and motivation to live and progress, and when we can't derive it from ourselves anymore, we pin it on kids.
But that said, I'm not that far sighted enough to anticipate and feel the joy of having and watching kids grow. My stance towards them is pretty much neutral; I still believe they tie me down, but I will prob give in to pressure from husband (assuming I do get one), pressure from in-laws, responsibility to parents, but at tht time, it won't be cos i want them, but because its just the right thing to do...
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
9:32 PM
# # # Saturday, July 21, 2007
yay, zoe tay gained back her memory in unbeatables 2...now the show's getting better and the people cooler.
..and tht's the main point of this entry...to mark that WHEE! she's rejected tht disgusting chauvenist for a fiance...=P
p.s. was watching in the office as well =P what do u think was hiding behind the excel window...
i see menopause looming (thnx jonteo).
actually i see my departure date looming, but that means i'm one mth closer to being 19, and tht means i'm a month closer to being 21, and a mth closer to being 25, and a mth closer to being 30...and 40..and menopause...and OLD AGE. PAINS. RHEUMETISM. and since i dun want kids, and is unlikely to get married since i don't want kids and i want to work 20 hrs a day, LONELINESS.
time is going to flyyyyyyy once i enter uni *glompz*
(excuse me awhile, long tingguang is back too!!!!)
and so i'm officially the only temp left in fd *gloom* everytime someone leaves i feel a wave of nostlgia, which is damn stupid since its not MY last day. but omg, time flies.
(commentary: ohh..unbeatables is so dumb!! zoe tay only contrlled the casino for one episode when she regained her meemory and her father regained his sanity and took over the casinos from her 0_0) from the first day (right after nyc trip), to the first wk & first dept lunch, first mth (which was downright depressing though i was trying to delude myself otherwise. there was no work to do except brainless ticking, noone to talk to, and i had no idea what was going on. the only aim was to rush home to watch the office and fall asleep), then march came...and work came in...and i still had no idea wat was going on..and then retreat...and then april i.e. yr end! (exhilarating, truly.) finally got an idea of what things are about, learn more and more stuff, and after the rush, the months just fly by....recon comes in, and by the time its handed up, the month has ended and i'm one month closer to leaving singapore..
(i've reached episode 15!!! halfway thru!!)
and at times i go even further back. nyc, post prom (where i had absolutely nothing to do...), x'mas, prom, pre prom/post As, studying for As...HEY! Alot had really happened in the past 9 mths or so!!
...and sometimes i wonder if maybe its not such a good idea to work until the very last day. maybe it'd have been good to experience some of those wake up at 10, watch tv serial dvds, go orchard when there's nobody days again...
...(ohhh...yanfei is sooo cool!!!!) but then i'm more worried that i can't get used to the faxct tht i;m leaving singapore. no time to adapt to tht idea. straight from full work routine day into school. into a 18 hr economy class flight.
..and not to mention i'm ageing. AGEING.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
2:06 AM
# # # Thursday, July 12, 2007
SEOUULLLL!!!! haha, the whole blogger's in korean, but its ok, i can find my way around.
so here i am tagging along on my daddy's business trip...
food: GOOD. the organisers really do a good job with the food, lunch was not bad..smoked salmon (i LIEK), korean food (tried non spicy kimchi, don;t like it. not tht il ike the spicy, just tht i never treied the spicy cos i carn take the spicy), jap sushi, UNAGI (they put the unagi sign in front of a fish dish and got me all tricked and confused -=( )western stuff, and alot of cakes (the way i like it) Dinner was...exotic! there was oxtail (still on the side of normality...), PUFFER FISH (0_0)..and others...
weather: HOT. terribly hot. cannot wear jeans.
hotel: GOOD.
so goin around sightseeing on my own. it feels normal, if you're interested. and there's not much to sightsee in seoul...shopping is better....
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
9:29 PM
# # # Monday, July 09, 2007
Its 2.42 am...talking to ofe...arranging songs, updating ipod, burning stuff into cds to clear my desktop....
I'm afraid...
of ageing...(not dying, but ageing)...
of change...(who isn't...)...
of loneliness...(worst of all is old AND lonely *shudders*)...
of losing freedom of choice...(I can't imagine living the life of my hamster or oscar)...
of wars...(we can't take peace for granted)...
of missing the bus, esp 173...(though this is largely inevitable...tibs hates me...)...
of pain...
of losing a conscience...
happiness lies in...
...durians...
...and foxtrots...
...and music...
...and lengthy phone calls...
...and cheap thrills...
...and romance...
...and nostalgy and memories...
...and lazy sunday afternoons...
...random entry.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
2:41 AM
# # # Saturday, July 07, 2007
Boo. I want to remember life now. Doing a diary where i chronicle(?) all my activities (from driving to going down to fedex), meetings (dinner, lunch, weekends e.t.c.), even what i learnt in job (from blb to PACKING =P), and other interesting things (from meeting and finding out my frnech teacher lives near me to my sis falling down, to the reason as to why ket carn go for swimming on the 22nd jun =p ), and holidays! (US, bali e.t.c.)
driving lessons FINISHED releived but i think i'm going to fail. instructor screams IMMEDIATE FAILURE at almost every lesson...better book more revision...
piano is dying..starting to feel the heat. going out at 7 am to work and returning at 11pm from driving is not joke,..no time to do anything and its damn tiring.
realised my priorities abit screwed...maybe extending contract till 20th aug is not suh a good idea. after all...llcm is supoes to take top priority...\
slightly depressed. realised i have no opinion on anything. throw me a topic and either i talk abopt superficial stuff about it, or i go blank. so much for 12 years of education =S and newsappers and time and the economists and books. i still carn form an opinion. i must realli appear shallow.
learning more at work...i think its getting to oobvious i have nothing to do..but good!! learn more =D
as u can tell, this entry is full of short paras and slipshod sentences and typos. typing realli fast cos i want to get back to preparing my piano scores and practicing piano and then going to arange my itunes and install proper stuff into my laptop (like ms office). bye.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
8:56 PM
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