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I'll have a blue Christmas
without you;
I'll be so blue thinking about you.
Decorations of red
on a green Christmas tree
Won't mean a thing if
you're not here with me


I'll have a blue Christmas, that's certain;
And when that blue heartache starts hurting,
You'll be doing all right
with your Christmas of white,
but I'll have a blue, blue Christmas.

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

Things are moving a leetleee wee bit faster...carn wait for sch to start...

Americans are really obese.

weathers a lil cooler, but i may have spoken too soon

argh things are still moving too slowly. i want things to MOVE.

Oh i like watchin th will you mtv..reminds me of ket and our sg tour and i still think saf is cool =P

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

3:29 PM

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Friday, August 24, 2007

Oh, and these 8 mths actually have been v v fulfilling. Actually not 8 mths. Considering Alvls ended 20 something Nov, its about9 mths...

Did quite abit.
Travelled - HK (Nov), Beijing (Dec), NY (Jan), Bintan (Apr), Seoul (Jul), Sg (Aug) - hey sg tour counts k
Travelled alone with FRIENDS (NY)
Travelled ALONE, like, TOTALLY ALONE to New Jersey from NY, and in Seoul. Like, all by myself.
Learnt French
Did ALCM theory, passed, got my dip cert, Took LLCM (but think I'll fail gosh)
Piano concert - duet with Alicia
Worked - first job and first time making money. Ohh..alot of firsts here. First oporate retreat, learnt BLB, learnt SCD, learnt abit about financial instruments, learnt to do recon (hahaha)
Made new friends

Hmm..anymore?

Strange to think how I used to lie on my bed on hot humid afternoons thinking of life overseas...in quiet old towns and such...and now on the same type of heat and humidity I'm thinking of these afternoons where I lie on my bed and dream. Ahh, anyway my snail, emails to wenjie, webcam and msn keeps me pretty much sane now. Gosh I miss home and everthing good that happened in my last 8 mths.

Oh, the NW leg o the trip from LA to Detroit is pretty nice..not the plane, the trip. PLane flew below the clouds, so amidst all the stars in the night sky..and I was thinking..ey, everyone and evyerthing I missed, we're all under the same sky...on the other side of the sky is home...friends...bf...and everything...

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

6:44 PM

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3rd day in Ann Arbor. Missing home, its hot, campus is not tht pretty, america is not as dry and cold as you think. As a matter of fact, its hot and smewhat humid ( my hair ain't drying) but the people are as obese. Think the level of development of a place should be measured by how progressive the stationary they sell. I mean, hello, writing determines how civilised you are and if you sell cheena pens and cheena erasers and no mechanical pencils, gosh, its BACKWARD. waht do you write with! Havent realli witnessed the stationary sold here yet..Hope its good...

Not much to talk about this place. Missing home abit. When I think of home all that I think about is...don't know. My childhood. Lying on the bed with my grandparents and watching tcs shows. Running around the estate with my sister and grandparnents..Then taking a bus around estates with pig, cos tht reminds me of my childhood too. Seems like childhood remains the deepest etched huh.

Appetite icnreasing, that's fpor sure. Can't wait for school to start. Gosh.

Anyway thanks everyone, for sending me off, love you all loads, and keep in touch k!!! SIA bumped me up to business class, which is COOL. well, mianly the food. they sprea table clothe and serve the food in courses and all...best is the space lah. Sleep like anything. Watched a few sitcoms and blades of glory....

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

5:25 PM

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Thursday, August 23, 2007

8 mth break has came to an end...alot of things completed, fulfilled, and alot f people to thank. And my boyfriend to tribute. And what i've been doing since I left Sg. When I'm thru with the individual emails and photo sending =D

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

12:56 PM

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

[edit: added more things to the end]

Alright, first things first:
Have to really really thank ALL my friends, esp pig, ket, ofe, huimin, mei for being so understanding and putting up with my horrendous scheduling esp in the past 2 mths. Thanks alot for putting up with all my tardiness in meeting all of you and inflexibility of schedules just cos I insisted on working right up to the day before I leave. I'm really really sorry, and I'm so going to miss all of you. Thanks for all the companionship inthe past 3 years, 6 years, or even more, and I so hope we'll still remain friends in the years to come =D

And so I FINALLY ended at MAS =)) Quite sad, couldn't finish JPMF before I leave, oh well, last recon ever....still sad. Bye USD 'H' .(don't suppose anyone else will be as stupid as to develop an attachment to their recon account, but oh well...). It's been great working...can't beleive the day I've been dreading (day before I leave)is finally here. It actually only seemed like yesterday I met the first few ppl ever for lunch...first dept lunch, retreat...have I gone thru the list already? And last few days without a doubt just flew by. hospital visit, div lunch, hos visit, den hey, last day. Anyway day started off meeting wenjie for breakfast...and then supposedl;y working. Talked alot though..(as usual) Then lunch with zhihui and co....really sweet...and then came back to do filing (2 mths of filing, thanks) and go collect cakes. And from then on cannot work already. Take cakes, come back, find tua ku, come back, give ot form to hr, come back, meet darren come back, and then its photowhoring all the way. Though I regret not taking enough photos =( Darren, btw, thnx for the really really really sweet card, its not something that I just tell everyone, really. =D

haha, was running to and fro and this messanger i met kept telling me don't run or i'd fall...

Have to thank eveyrone for the gifts, its sweet =D (hehe, ppl ask me what's this formula, equal D =P ) Hmm..went to meet mei huimin cheryl geri for dinner (as usual I was late, really really sorrie) Had to get security to open the gate for me to get out since I returned my pass, and they were like
"where's your pass"
"last day la"
"HUH? WHY YOU QUIT?"
"not quit lah, contract end"
"studying?"
"yup"
"gd luck *shakes hand*"

and at this time janet called to tell me i left my camera upstairs, argh. so she kindly brought it down for me...and i went on my way. gosh, i'll miss all of them... oh clincher came when i was asked for cmments and how o improve department gosh...quite a shock.

i'll never go around tp for lunch again...or breakfast with pig...or walk around ip...gosh.

anyway dinner was fun. playing with the quail's egg tht came raw with the soba hehe. tried to cook it in boiling water. and THNX AGAIN ppl, for the gifts. went back to office cos i wanted to save some files in m y hard drive, mei and huimin kindly packed everything into my new sch bag =PP

...and my day hasn't ended.

dear called me t 11.45 andtold me to go downstairs..and there he was. gosh. i'll never want to forget how hard he tried to get out of camp and rushed everywhere just for me...

and a short recap of days leading up to departure. wed was sleepover with mei and huimin..watched 3 movies..went for breakfast thurs morning,..and i reached office at 9.30 whoops/ thurs was div lunch...goign to miss working and everyone i worked with...and i was realli falling asleep in the afternoon...fri morning went hosp again...cabbed back to get phone and cabbed to work. gosh..THIRTY BUCKS. after work went to see fireworks with dear...SPECTECULAR. sat met ket in the morning for breakfast and project, met class for lunch, went to office to clear stuff, tok long bus ride to bishan to go popular (fell asleep on his lap =P) den went to holland v to meet jonteo....yup

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

5:12 AM

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

I'm so sad my temp job stint is finally comin to an end. The people are so nice and the environment is so relaxed...Its so fun being a temp but the sad fact is, not only can't I take temping as a career (=P), its only fun when i'm young. (Can you imagine being a temp at 30?)

And I love being 19 in general. IF even 20 somethings are feelng old, its hih time to appreciate being still 19.

I'm going to miss all the memories this holidays. And I hope there are enough happiness and laughter in umich to make me feel nostalgic rather then depressed about this holidays. I'll miss all the random outings with pig, driving lesson..i'll even miss walking the stretch of road from the driving centre to the mrt station with him. And mobil beside the centre....

I'll miss meeting him for breakfast at coffeebeans before work, and I'll miss running to him if work doesnt go too well. And i'm going to miss going to work at 7 am when there's no one in the office. Speaking of which, I;m going to miss working at 10 pm during year end when there's no one in the office too. Thinking of Apr time out sheet still makes me happy =D I'm goin to miss doing recon!! Stupidly, I think I've developed a slightt sense of attachment to the account. I mean, hey, i'm keeping track of every transaction I come across in tht account, I don't want to give it to someone new =( I'll miss talking and laughing and talking and laughing (which pretty much became more and more my only job description since wenjie came) Ohh, 'll miss getting cheap thrills whenever I get work outside the normal recon...get taught something new...discover something new. Cool, think I've learnt quite abit. I'll miss being the youngest around =P Gosh, I can't beleive this is my last weekend already (something I've been dreading for quite some time)Though the more I dread it the longer it'll take to come...

Sometimes I wonder, is having a terrible and miserable time and not feeling any nostalgia at all better then having a wonderful and enjoyable time, and then experience all the misery and nostalgia when it comes to an end...better.

Oh and one more thing, I have to thank mas for the use of their photocopying machine, binder, printer, super fast but sososo limited printer, the office-but-will-soon-become-school stationary, and sponsoring my stock market investments

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

7:49 AM

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

NDP has left me with some...kind of feeling...

There's some sense of pride when they displayed the navy and the commandos (i want to join sof!)
There's a certain sense of belonging when I singalong to the NDP songs...

I'm going to miss Sg alot. And even when 'm back, its not going to be the same!
I loved my childhood in the hdb estate, playing around the estate, watching ch8 shows with my grandparents and all...

And when I take the bus around bishan and all the surrounding estates again, its another wave of nostalgy =(

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

9:22 PM

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Friday, August 10, 2007

and oh, btw, my korea trip was covered in the 6th of Aug edition of digital life (under 20th CIO Workshop) hehehe.

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

3:44 AM

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Whoo...its been a cool week! =D

Monday:
Hmm..Took half day leave! Went to rehearse and then went out for dinner...

Tues:

coolcoolcool!! Almost took leave to rehearse, but I'm glad I didn't! Went back to school in the morning (in sch uni =P) Ambushed the teachers outside the staff room. Hehe, we were waiting outside the lift, and mrsyeo came in, and I waved to her. She looked a little puzzled, waved back, and continued her way to the staff room...

...and stopped, retraced her steps, and faced us again. Haha, she was in shock. and so was mslim. (she said we looked cute!) but yeah, the first question most teachers asked was: what are u doing back here? in sch uniform?

and mrs yeo was so nice. gave us her tietable and asked us to crash (i have to work though), let us crash her class for asembly, and asked us to go back at night for ndp celebrations (though we kept ponning those when we were in sch)

Sigh typing about them here makes me miss school....it seems like an eternity away, far removed from life now =(

Anyway, as you can imagine...reached work at 9.20, kinda late. Had a looong briefing on troublesome CA files (felt like i was in mini lectre at sch for ashort while...and tht felt good. Wish i was back in rj =( ), and then went down to uncle's office to collect NDP tickets and chatted for awhile. Went back to office and did a few minute calculations, and guess what! its time for lunch =DD

Hehe, boss on leave, superviser on sick leave, so...returned from lunch at 2.45 (shhh...) Went for NDp celebrations at around 3 ( we missed the pledge and anthem and all hehe) Thinking back, quite glad. Cos it'd be the first year I don'; have a sch to celebrate it with, at least can celebrate at MAS. Long service award...hehe, no cmments. Kinderland kids did songs and fashion sho (so cute!!!) Trainee officers did skit...(hehe, imagine the present mas scholars u know doing this 5 years later =P)..w enjie making alot of comments..

anyway time for food, but we (w enjie and a lbert) went to pool and tabletennis...thts 4 pm already...4.30 a lbert went back to work and we went up to penthouse again to snatch food...which by the way wasn't much...or not at all...

went back to office at about 5...and talked for most of it. Net work done on tuesday: keyed in 4 transactions (to be fair they required quite a few calculations...)

went to bishan for dinner...dintaifung...den to school again to take pics =D I'm missing the late night muggings in school too...

*glompz*

Wed:
Normal working day...finished recon (whee! Last recon of my life) Wanted to take leave on fri and mon (piano exam AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!) and as usual..interesting work comes in when i want to take leave. and and and!! amt of work tht comes in is proportional to the amt of leave i want to take =/ sad >=(

(by the way, a more P.C. word for promotion is "redesigntion" and a more P.C. word for retrrenchment, is "rationalization" (after all, its rational to want to downsize and save costs).)

rushed it out and met ket at dhoby gaut to go national museum an hour late =S sorrie ket! Lost our way. Walked in the total opp direction of museum and made a few circles before finding it 15 min b4 closing time. Went into ONE gallery though. Security guard was nice, told us to comemback tmr and EVRYTHING is free..So we went around taking photos in the museum (outside the galleries)

One guard approached us.....looking kinda intimidating...and he asked: excuse me!! Where did u get ur bag from? isit lv? u dunno how much it costs? ohh...*crestfalln*

hehehe...

sorrie..it's my mum's.

Ket and i made our way to the sg river to take more pics! Made pig walk a loonggg way =P sorrie..=P posed take posed take...not too bad. made the 1-10 in act cute jap thingy...

reached home at 12..whoops.

Thurs

WHEE national day. NDP!!!
1. i want to take part in EVERYTHIGN. i want to be organizing! with the tag and my name on it! I want to be performing! in the jazz inc, singapore dance troupe, orchestras/ensembles, singing the national day songs. I want to join the army!! Command the parade, parachute, dive, drive a plane! So cool! Almost made me wish i did BMT!~

its this one day in the whole year when u feel realli realli patriotic...where the army really seems like a defence force..and i realli feel proud!! and i can sing the national day songs with feeling..(sebastian tan, by the way, was quite good! as was kit chan!)

fire works was ok...

ok going to bed now. have ti reali start packin after piano exam sheesh

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

1:56 AM

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Saturday, August 04, 2007

I don't like Vista.

It requires a hell lot of unnecessary maneuveurs, takes up a hell lot of RAM, and works with a thousand and one glitches, like, hey, my video cam CAN'T BE INSTALLED.

Thanks Microsoft.

On the brighter note, leave taken today was highly fulfilling. Went neo-printing and then went with Ofe to Siloso beach. (Kinda reminded me of retreat. Hey, was that only 5 mths ago? Seemed like a waaay longer time then tht =( )Got lost and ended up walking a loooong way to the busstop in the sweltering heat. But hey, this kind of heat is hard to come by in Michigan right?

Bussed down to Siloso beach and stopped by at Delifrance. Talked for awhile before we had to remind ourselves that we definitely didn't come to Siloso beach to hide in air-conditioned cafes. Made our way (again in the sweltering heat) to the top of some ulu rocks to take pretty photos. Enlisted the help of a Canadian man and his wife (both retirees)who were fishing to take photos for us.

Nice man, everytime we ask and fret if we're disturbing and chasing the fishies away he'll assure us, hey! he's a retiree! he has all the time in the world! So we stopped and chatted abit. He got quite impressed with the fact that Ofe's phone can take photos, and claimed he never received a photo on his phone before. So we tried sending one over, but his has no MMS or Infrared or Bluetooth...

And we spoke about life...in general. Our fears as young girls, going onto college...and he spoke about his life travelling and his daughters and son-in-law and life.

Then we moved onto another part of the rocks to take more piccies. Met 2 indians taking turns to photograph each other looking cool. Haha, they were really posing as if for a model shot =P Even brought change of clothes! So we disrupted them and made them take a series of photos for us. Last photo Ofe noticed the other guy was taking photos of us with their cam. We chose to ignore. Thanked them and walked away.

Haha, and THEN one of them came to us and asked us to take a photo with him. Hehe, we obliged, and then made them take a few more of us with their cam, and asked them to email it to us =D

We must have dissappointed thm though, (i) They asked if we were Japanese and we told them the sad truth, we're all locals. (ii) We must have looked les in the photos.

So then we happily left them to their phototaking and posing and made our way down to the seashore. Played with sand, took more photos, and decided to go back photowhoring at the rocks now that its sunset. Went back to the Canadian guy and took moremoreoremore photos! This time he gave us his email add and told us to send him the photos. Ohh, turns out his some professor who wrote secondary school geog textbooks!

...And that was our day at the beach. Took the bus back to the monorail station and met the same 2 indians on the bus. Made our way to the top deck and so did they...and they carried on their photo-whoring...

Haha, den when I turned back to look at them they whirled the camera around and took a shot of me. Then when the bus driver announced: NO STANDING ON THE UPPER DECKS and I whirled around to look at them, they said: see here! see here! and both me and ofe turned to let them take a shot. Trigger-happy tourists =P

Grace cancelled swimming date cos I was not going to make it there on time. Went SHOPPING! Hehe...

...GOD how I hate the new windows media player and vista. Terrible.

tis xmas, plz stay wit me..

xx

2:41 AM

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