Tuesday, September 11, 2007
our song:
怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能知道足够
如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
当一阵风吹来
风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛
那天你和我
那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞
才发现笑着哭最痛wo…
如果你快乐再不是为我知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
=(( Reminds me too much of home and 'm STILL missing home and my holidays. Was reading a junior's blog and I realised, omg, its nearing THEIR end of sch and ours is only just beginning. The 8 mths just flew by like anything. At this point last year...well I was kinda satisfied. And I never know what I have until I have to leave them. Like, from sec2 to sec3 all I could think of was, GOD I DUN WANT PREPARATION FOR OLVLS TO START. And from sec4 to J1 I realised, starting sch would be ok if only i had all my sec4 friends with me again, esp mei who left for states. and then the transition from sec2 to sec3 seemed trivial. And now from sg to states...need i say more? no more family or friends who've I known for so long or the singapore landscape.
every mth had some sort of special feeling attached to it. Like, Oct Nov was mugging time. When I rmb studying till late in the library, HOD room, orange room, and taking random walks around the school when I was bored.
songs: zhi zu, qian li zhi wai, jin yu mu yu =P alvl playlist
Nov and Dec was going out time. When I could enjoy full days outside with friends..shopping with ofe ket...shopping with huimin ann...going out for full day outings with dear...
songs: moreor less the same..
Jan: NYC! hahaha
songs: ave q sound track =P
Feb: work. v v depressing. no friends nothing to do at work and everyone else is working or in the army. arraged for dinner every night to meet up with ppl and feel better...explored tanjong pagar for the first time...hmm..bestway, amara... remember going for basic theory test with ket and ann and hanyou, watching th office at home everyday, and meeting dear altoalot when i was v v sad =( begun driving lsssons and i rmb meeting dear to go out after driving lessons. cck, west mall, or town, or somethign.
songs: still ave q?
March: pretty much the same. rmb first retreat...somewhat not much memories of march. rmb dear's block leave.. meet him alot. oh huimin and jorina came to work. piano exam. rmb working on one sat too.
songs: nothing in particular
Apr: v v vsatisfying. things go uphill from here. rush work for hyear end until 10 pm fr one wk. hmm, felt like i was learning stuff for the first time. watched alto of phantom of the opera.
songs: phantom of opera soundtrack.
may/june: for some resaons these mths, apr may june just zoomed by like anything. alot of rehearsals with alicia. removed wisdom teeth. begun to upload my whole music library into office com...learning more in job now. v happy
songs: alvl soundrack and bowling for soup, mainly
june: rushing around fr driving lessons alot. dear will rush around with me...and we'll go out tgt or something. and it begun to dawn on me tht tme left in sg is v v limited. esp when huimin and jorina ended their contract...and work just got more fun.
July: oh started dawning upon ppl my time is limited too. keep going out and taking leave. and practising piano. and I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST.
Aug: NATIONAL DAY. v v v happy. going out alot with dear, going out alot with ket, NATIONAL DAY. SINGAPORE TOUR. and all tht.
songs: NATIONAL DAY SONGS. shan hu hai, tui hou.
yeahh....
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
10:27 PM
# # # Friday, September 07, 2007
really tired but i'll stil lspare some time to blog.
even though almost all my entries so far are reminiscing about home and i really am missing home, i'm not craving too badly. adapting quite comfrotbaly here, imo.
was thinking about my childhood today. i.e. ages 0-6. and i realised the onli regret i have in life is that those best years of my life, i didn't recognise them. i didn't recognise them as the most carefree periods tht i'm never going to recover and the activities i can do and get away with i'll never be able to do them again and the setting of singapore then will not remain the same.
i miss waking up in my grandparents room on a mattress in the morning and the morning sun is shining in thru the windows...
and beside the flat was nyjc and the singapore anthem will blare.
and downstairs my gma will make milo...and bread with something...
and sometimes i'll go down to the market with her.
and living in an hdb then is really different, cos all the neighbours along the corridors leave their doors open and only close the grill. and all are friends. so somtimes i'll sit by their door and play with stuff while they talk at the doors...
thus i rmb weekday morns to be v re nao even though everyone's supposd to be at work.
and about 11pm i get my lunch and take the sch bus to school: kinderland. (there was a painful time in my childhood when i had to go to PAP kindergarten in the morning but we shall forget tht. i'll never never never send my child to PAP its bad for their development. traumatising event.) on some rare treats (ok, not tht rare) i'll get to eat the duck rice from the nice duck rice uncle's store downstairs. duckrice uncle knows i love the skin and gives me lots and lots of them (it seemed nice then, but on retrospect, he gains, but i still beleive he was being nice. besides, this beleif preserves the innocnce of childhood) and my grandmother's neighbours, when they stop by and talk to her from outside through the kitchen window (which is beside the corridor) they'll say i eat the plate so clean my gma dun need to wash plates anymore.
anyway i'll go to take the bus to school...
and school..well..i rmb using string to form numbers...
and music lessons...haha, i rmb a boy playing alternting d and e and telling us: THIS SOUNDS LIKE SHARKS are COMING! and we all nod in muted agreement. (go on, try, it realli sounds like those music movies use when sharks come) and we are all so fascinated by the ink eraser cos it can erase colour pencils and at tht time, NOTHING can erase colour pencils.
and i hated my chinese teacher and knowing my luck, i had the same chiense teacher for all 3 years. i hate it tht she makes me write with my paper perpendicular to my table. i mean, why carn i write my paper slanted?!
and we'd grow beansprouts in clas...
and they'd use to make books out of vanguard and paper and i used to love colouring it. rmb one book about someone getting fired (where i learnt tht the word fired doesnt ean a fire at all), and there's one about a fox tht lost its tail...
oh and the eachers had this droll sense of humour. this malay boy wa s jumping up and down and was like: TEACHER INEED TO GO TOILET. I CARN STAND IT ANYMORE.
and she was like: den dun stand. sit.
hehehehe. oh and i sued to get all excited when someone buys a birthdya cake for herself and the principal gets the whole sch to sing a birthday song for him/her. and i did it once too.
and den i take the sch bus home at around 5.30 to watch carebears on ch5. and my grandfather comes back first, followed by my aunt and uncles later in the day. i rmb evening at serangoon was really pretty. the sun sets behind the opposite flats and the whole place turns a shade of orangey red. and the corridor flourescent lights are turned on and then my uncles and aunt returns and we all have dinner tgt. When i was relaly really young i used to follow my gfather downstairs to walk at nyjc (sometimes i'd bring my sndcastle stuff - buckets nd spades to play at the ongjump pit) and we'd play with those squares/circles slabs they lay on grassy areas ( no idea for what)
rmb a lady saw us jumping from slab to slab was sneeredto her son: like tht play one meh? -_- sheesh. creativity killer.
as i grew a bit older (but not older thn 6) i begun to grow a little lazy and would rather stay at home to watch the tcs dramas on ch8 at 7. but whichever the case, after the 7.00 show I'd move up to the bedroom with my grandparnts and my aunt and watch gaoxiaoxingdong and the 9.00 show. i rmb being v scared that gaoxiaoxingdong and hence, liang popo will end its run like all the other serials. sigh, if onli this were my onli worry now.
nd i can do things like build houses and structures with pillows nd bolsters and blankets (and i cried when my aun dismantled them to go to bed) or play with my cookery set.
during sch holidays my gfather will tkae leave and my gparents sis and i will go to watch movie ( i rmb watching free willy and babe with them), or go to the zoo, or mt faber, or sentosa - fantasy island, underwater world...i love my grandparnts for giving me such a beautiful childhood.
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
2:20 PM
# # # Saturday, September 01, 2007
Want to recount everything that happened:
Travelled to Ontario, Canada, to the Niagara Falls (Ni-Ah-Grah). Took the Maid of the Mist nearer the falls, and got splashed! And then we walked on the Rainbow Bridge from Canada to USA (New York State) and back to Canada again! The town Niagara in Canada is ROCKING. Casinos, Hard Rock Cafe, Marvel Comics Store, Hersheys Megastore...reached home at 2am. It takes 5 hours to travel to and fro from Canada.
Windsor, Canada. Dad wanted to bring me into casino in Canada cos age limit is 19, but argh, short of 2 mths and they don't allow it. Like, really. So explored Windsor with Rongsiu, but its a blahdy boring place. Wanted to go to a mall but the Hilton guy said its impossible without a car or a cab. And its scary. There's those male stores. And its hot. Scorching hot.
Detroit. Another scary place. Looks like Maple Story Town...Hernys or something. The theives one. Broken down, abandoned buildings, grafitti. And the scariest thing is? Those areas are habitated. There are ppl living there. Can see houses off the main road. *shudder*
And then Daddy left, and I missed him dreadfully. Miss him riving me around, his enthusiasm about going everywhere, doing everything. Miss him bringing me to good Chinese restaurants, living with him at redroofinn, in the car with him on hot quiet summer days, walking with him around the area in the cooler evenings and morning. Miss him going with me shopping and being all anxious and wanting to get for me everything. And the day we went to the dentist and we got diaoed by the stupidobeseamericans and he got a ticket because of that and i was so demoralised about america and i want to do my dental surgery in singapore but he assured me that moeny is not an issue and that him and mum both want me to do it as soon as possible and they'll always be there for me. And then I missed going to Seoul with him, and him always taking care of me, and him doing everything he can for me, even when i make him angry. and him sending my files and books down to school for me when i forget them, or even when i want to leave them at home but he thought i forgot them, without another word or another question. and i miss him always working late into the night or waking up at unearthly hours to work. Or taking time off work to attend to my affairs. even when his tired. and I regret not wanting to breakfast with him everytime he asks me to when he sends me to work early, cos i'm too lazy, or i want to collect tht few hours of ot. i love my dad.
Friendly chinese restuarnat. Some taiwanese guy who is v v nice. The owner of the restuarant, gave us his namecard, chatted woith us, gave us tips on where to go to eat (there's this restaurant Eastern Accents on Eliberty and 4th Ave. V v v nice. But dunno why bo lo bao is called pineapple bun when there's not a shred of pineapple in it). Reminds me of those Hokkien Huay Kuan for the immigrants last time though.
Orientation. Boring. I mean the official programme. Full of talks and placement tests which are no applicable. Sheesh
Post Orientation. So after dad left i'm left to find my own programmes. Yest was new student's convocation...some boring but formal event where they have lots of speeches and school spirit stuff. Then its ARTSCAPADE ESCAPADE. Which is som fair thing at the Union. V v rocking. The atmosphere is crazy.
Today was Meijer Madness Meijer is typically a supermrket. Huge supermarket. Like Carrefour. Onli huger. So they booked the entire supermarket and organise things like treasure hunt in there, draws, kinda like a fair in the supermarket. But problem was, everyone was heading there, and the buses took v v long to come. American mobs are scary. There was overcrowding of ppl at the busstop. When a bus came, the americans asked: BRING US TO MEIJERS!! BRING US TO MEIJERS! and the bus driver was like, no I don't go to meijers. And they were like BOOOOOOOOOOO imagine soccer fans. Its scary, really. So then the right buses came, 2 of them, and we didn't get in (duh) the crowd was huggeee. And if I were the bus driver, 'd be so scared to open the doors cos there'd be a huggeee bottleneck effect. So anyway headed back into the dorm.
Chinese Placement. Tht was earlier this afternoon. V happpy, got placed into 4th level Chinse=D
Oh, met a cool guy. Typically when we meet ppl, we'd ask. freshman? no? senior??? OMG this guy is a PHD in piano performance! Bachelors in NYU Masters in JUlliard and he knows claireyeo. Met him at chinese placement and bubble tea giveaway. He took 4 years of chinese and is at 4th level placement too! Oh, and its damn sad. he carn understand me when I speak eng, but can when we speak chiense.
Dorm: Big! And Clean, just finished packing it! V v v nice. Though now have to fill it up with food...when I;m hungry there's nothing to eat.toilets are clean too! and my bed is rather comfortbale. And my sis is damn cute. she was play acting the dog and the grey rat hehehe. but i;lm damn sad cos everyone watched ratatouiee already. And its over in US already.
hmm...anything else? Haha collected my snail back from my frined's room today and he had to go thru a whole ritualof kissing every other stuffed toy in tht room. haha poor escargot, but his doing well! hahha.
ok nothing else. finally. sunset here is beautful. upload another day
tis xmas, plz stay wit me..
xx
2:30 PM
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